Sunday, April 29, 2012

Wuthering Heights

Give me hope in silence
It's easier; It's kinder
Tell me not of heartbreak
It plagues my soul, plagues my soul
We will meet back on this road
Nothing gaining, truth be told



I have this weak spot for Jane Austen & Emily Brontë novels. Especially rainy foggy moors, pretty dresses with mudstains on it and inseperable romance and agony.

Monday, April 9, 2012

I have seen a lot of pictures like this come across different websites lately.
I get the point. I get the point that people think it is wrong that the media and fashion industry tells us what is considered a beautiful person and what is not. But apart from that, I think this is very hypocrite and it truly pisses me off.

For some reason it is now rude to call a curvy woman chubby or fat but it is perfectly normal to call a skinny woman an anorexic skeleton. They are 'victims of fashion and modelling industry' and 'look ugly naked'. It is unhealthy, wrong and unnatural.

'When did this become hotter than this?;' Well my question is: Since when is it considered rude to comment on curvy women's body shape but is it acceptable to call skinny woman unattractive?

I was very skinny when I was about fourteen years old. An age where you are definitely insecure about your appearance. Take my word on it that classmates called me 'way too skinny', 'anorexic', 'unhealthy' or even 'freaky'. I did not suffered from an eating disorder or other medical condition, it was just how I looked. But no way I could say anything about more curvy girls because that was rude and unfair. People always told me not to complain about my body shape because 'everyone wanted to be skinny', even though people were telling me I had an unattractive body shape.

I am not saying this because I want to inform people about my high school issues. I just think that this whole campaign on the internet about how hot Marilyn Monroe is and how unattractive Keira Knightly is, is just as wrong as it would have been the other way round. The general point that should have been made is that every body shape & size should be valued, whether this is confirmed by media and fashion or not. Nothing is more attractive than a woman who is confident about the way she looks and feels at ease with who she is and what she looks like. 
Don't let anybody ever tell you that the way you look is wrong. A part of your beauty might come from the inside and your lovely personality, but damn girl, you like fine just the way you are.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

A New Home



I have been doing okay lately. Two exams coming up next week, in developmental psychopathology and clinical neuropsychology. I look forward to see my boyfriend who's visiting me next week. It has 'only' been about three weeks since we have seen eachother. 'Only' three weeks haha, standards chance when you live a thousand kilometres apart. When he leaves I will fly to Edinburgh where I'll be visiting one of my best friends for a couple of days.
So, good things coming up. Utrecht is starting to feel like home, which is good. I still don't have a job and I am slowly getting used to a sober lifestyle, but it is still quite tricky sometimes. It's also good for creativity, to fulfil my urge for nice food and new clothes I have to come up with other solutions then just buy a shitload of stuff. Last year I earned about 400 euros a month without having to spend that on rent or food. At the moment, after paying my rent, I have a 180 euros to live on, this includes money for groceries. It's quite a chance, but hey! Challenge accepted! I'll manage. I still have two job applications sort of running so fingers crossed for those.
And after this not-so-interesting update I'm going to spend the rest of my day on braindamage. Lovely! (and yes, I mean that)